Mother’s Day 💝 and some thoughts

I disappeared again 8D sorry

At least I'm updating here cuz I kinda abandoned my IG&FB w (Twitter is long gone since I lost my account access with my old phone and their assistance won't help me, rip)

It's not like I have so much to say

...anyway

This Sunday was 's Day! I went to see my parents

I bought desserts for my mom (along with a present but I didn't take a pic :') it was a flowery mug filled with chocos w) and we went to the flea market, then we watched a movie :D it was a fun sunday

My co*de:

Top: Shibuya 109 Aliexpress Shop (Liz Lisa replica) - Shorts: Tiffoni - Boots: Alcott - Bag: Liz Lisa

Ugg boots are super trendy this spring but it's already so hot here x_x I already need to find other shoes sob

The pastries I bought for my mom :D they were delicious ;w;

I'm super happy she liked my gift and the pastries (especially the pastries, I bought only her favorites wwwwww), she deserves the best

 

And this is what I got at the flea market XD

GAP preppy cardigan, too bad it's already too hot for it ;;

 

Tsuyome? dress, but I kinda changed my mind and I'm thinking about selling it w

 

Benetton barbie pink top, it's 100% cotton! Perfect for s/s :D

 

Bershka dress that reminded me of Lip Service

 

GUESS tshirt

 

GAS hot pink pants!!! With strass brand tag *0* it lost a bit of strass already but I'll try to replace them ><

And a dress I picked up from the post office :D

LD Prime mint tartan maxi dress! Actually it's a bit mid-calf lenght but since I'm short it reaches a bit above the ankles wwwww

THE TARTAN IS SPARKLY!!! T____T it's so pretty I love it

Now I just need a small frill denim vest, a loose knit tan top and I'm READY 8D

It kinda makes me laugh that I wrote "I'm ready" when I'm actually thinking about quitting gyaru w

Well I'm kinda thinking about quitting just gyaru makeup/hairstyling tbh, gal fashion is still the only fashion I like so I'm still buying clothes w

It's just that... this year I'll be 34 ^^"

Gyaru fashion is a fashion made for teenagers and young women, that's why it's so flashy and quirky

And it looks amazing on EVERY single girl I saw

but on me... lol. Just lol. It doesn't matter how many filters I use I KNOW I'm old and ugly XD

Especially when doing Ranzuki style... I feel kinda stupid lol

Heavy makeup also doesn't look good anymore on me, and my hair can't take all this stress anymore, it doesn't matter if I use heatless curling methods, it keeps snapping and breaking. I need to cut it absolutely but I should dye it too and I'm scared of the damage at this point...

Also my skin can't take it anymore, wearing foundation and makeup everyday hurts my skin and it shows (with breakouts, irritations, stains and all that stuff), the more makeup I wear the older I look

But how can I call myself gyaru if I don't do my hair and my makeup?

How can I call myself gyaru if I can't do anymore what really makes a gyaru?

I don't wanna be one of those people who just buy a ton of brand stuff and calls themselves "gyaru" wearing plain makeup and hair

Gyaru fashion is a piece of my personality. It's my taste. My thoughts. 

But maybe it's time to say goodbye?

I have to think about this (especially cuz I don't want to sell my stuff, last time I tried to quit gal in 2018 I went into a BIG depression phase cuz I didn't feel like myself without gal w and I don't wanna experience that again w) but yeah this is why I'm not into social networks anymore w

Also not having a "funny" life doesn't help me w (cuz as you may have noticed, I mostly just work. I only go out on weekends and I'm just doing normal stuff like shopping, dinner or coffee with friends. Why should you be interested in this? XD What's the point of sharing my life if my life is THIS boring?)

I just don't know XD

But meanwhile I'm thinking all of this I've got a notification from my ss that I just won... those?

I'm after that zebra bag since 2016 8D 

And the hoodie is from Sakurina's own brand T______T

WHY I'M GETTING SAINT GRAALS ITEMS ONLY NOW????

Where was all this luck when I was younger???? ç____ç

So yeah, all this rant about quitting while I'm still buying stuff lol (well I can always use them as room decor but yeah it's incoherent w)

Well, it's my blog, I guess I can rant about whatever I want w

I hope next post will be more interesting w

Yours, Natsumin~

1st May!

 Finally it's fridayyyyyyyyy yayyyyyy

I'm so tired XD this week was crazy and so full, I'm so happy it's finally weekend! Actually this week we had another free day, on 1st May which is Workers Day in Italy :D and I went to see the big event in Bari with my friends! Maybe that's why I'm so tired w

Hoodie, legwarmers: d.i.a - Shorts: XIII Japan - Tank top: Skinny Lip - Acce, boots, stockings: thrifted

I tried filling my droop with black cuz I saw that Soul Sister models do their makeup like that

Lashes are Angel Eye & Feminine Eye from Diamond Lash, while lipstick is an old peach one from Wycon and Dior pink lipgloss lol

Some details XD I added those metal deco I had for cosplay as a fake eyebrow piercing www

My inspo was Soul Sister as I said so I had to have piercing XD I liked it, I'm gonna do it again w

 

The event was CHAOS XDDD so many people, stands and the weather was unpredictable XD it looks nice in pics but it was super windy so clouds were changing really fast... and one moment it was sunny, the moment after it rained lol so typical

But the stands were so cool! So much alternative indie stuff *0*

I wanted this backpack so much

Jewels made from flowers and plants! *0*

Origami earrings!!

Panties lol

I can't XD

More origami jewelry! From Yoko, a japanese artist living in Bari!

SO PRETTYYYYYYY

Hand made soaps & lipgloss!!

There was a big concert, games, trampolines and so much more! But the weather was challenging really XD

At some point we were kinda uncomfortable cuz there was no space were to sit, it was raining and there was so much people that 3g didn't work XD so we left and went to sit somewhere and have coffee

But along the way I found my new boyfriend:

I MEAN LOOK AT HIM HE'S SO CHARMING 

And he has a bowtie so he's a gentleman

We went inside and they had a plush sale assdgsgdksòs I HAD TO RESTRAIN MYSELF
Look at this unicorn it looks like the Little Twin Stars unicorn ;____; I WANTED IT but I choose my new boyfriend XD

And I found some other crazy stuff

Sexy kyaba mlmlml

It started raining AGAIN so we ran to the cafe XD

We went to Martinucci and Machi made me try the crepes cake *0*

NOM NOM NOM 

My cake:

Her cake, with pistachios cream:

After cake we met up with Nericchi and took a stroll... we found this dog sitting in the street like a sphinx XDDDDD some other people told us he's sitting here in this exact spot EVERYDAY so I guess Bari has its own Hachiko now www

We went to Sephora to get some stuff

I got this leave in that I tried this summer and it's SUPER, it makes the hair super shiny and smooth, I love it ;_; finally I found it again

After Sephora we split up and me and Machi went to eat before I had to take the train

My dinner, I finally tried Mo Bun :D it's like a kebab in a really crunchy bun, super tasty and filling, but a bit too fat for me ^^" my stomach is kinda sensitive w

After dinner we just rested near the station until I had to leave, then said bye to Machi and went home, I was super tired I swear w

Why I always look crazy in pics with friends 🥲

Anyway XD here's what I got yesterday 8D

This ring I got from BeFloral stand at the event :D it's gold with a real red flower ;-;

OUAI leave in conditioner and Mario Badescu toner 

 

 My bunny bf wwww and that kyaba fan XD it looks so 2007 agejo to me wwww

 

I also got some late gifts cuz we are messy as fck and took us months to coordinate wwwww

Tanjiro pin and THE CUTEST HEART BRACELET EVER *0* a bday gift from Fede and Nick from last summer wwww they gave it to Nericchi so she could give it to me but we couldn't see each other for a while, then she moved and couldn't remember where it was XDDD now, just 3 months before my next bday, she found it again XDDDDD it's hilarious god when u move out it's always like this, I can relate so much XDDD thank u so much Nericchi anyway XD

Nericchi's welcome present from her bday party :D I forgot to took one so logically she gave me two wwwww

Nericchi's xmas present XDD an organizer for my nail stuff *0*!! and the cutest pink adorable sewing kit!! I swear I wanted one so much, for conventions, trips etc it's super useful, especially if you have diy or handmade clothes it's a must have!! x_x

Well that's it XD now I'm waiting for a couple of parcels from Vinted andddd a new order from mercari finally 8D I can't wait to show u everything wwww

Yours, Natsumin~